Hard to be positive, or even focus on something at this time. My sister is in the hospital right after my mom passed away. She has also givin positive due to being the last to be with my mom. As a positive note, she has a minor pneumonia and no other side health issues that could degrade her due to CV-19, but sheīs 61 and in the hospital so I can only but worry. If she goes, I would be alone as my dad passed away two years ago, but I have hope.
With the lockdown, I and my girlfriend were the only oneīs at my moms funural due to restrictions which only made everything even more sad. Due to the lockdown we canīt go for walks and donīt have a porch or patio, we live in a small apartment, so that option is discarted for us which does make a big differance in quality of life right know.
Aside from the above, the sadness just getīs bigger as I see/read how all this is being handle! Wont go into details but I hope everybody will remember how bad this is going when they look back at how the system works! Those who are really in the frontline are not being rewarded (lack of supplys) by goverments and every day citizens are proving that thereīs wayīs to remedy some of this buy creating there own mask, gelīs, protective screens ect. through household items or 3D printers, donations ect. The response is so unhuman by goverments at this age that it all adds up to more sadness. Nurses had to assist families by handing there smartphones to those who were dying due to the CV so they could give there last goodbey, due to restrictions of visits! The replica that goverments all over the world are following really botherīs me, in a sense that has no logic, and overall very strange that they all follow the same pattren, and itīs not due to Chinas model.
I try to think on other things but itīs not easy. Would play some games but I canīt think on killing/shooting at anything at this time, even if itīs a cardboard counter! Only games I try to play right now are Survisland and Space Engineers. Makes you think why most games are so violent. Canīt play guitar or listen to music, and itīs hard for me to focus while I read, so not much can keep me from thinking on something else.
Sorry but this is just how it is on the other side of the fence. Enjoy all you can of what you can, and make sure you donīt forget that itīs not that easy for others. Today there was a tribute to those who died in the Germanwings Incident, they too could not do what they wanted, but itīs a remainder that people die due to human stupidity! My prayers are with them too.
Be safe and prayers for your sister.
I know it might sound hard, but watch some comedy or something to get a laugh. Try to keep the depression away or at least not so bad.
Seek peace but keep your gun handy.
I'm not a complete idiot, some parts are missing!
Illegitemus non carborundum est (Dont let the bastards grind you down).
― Julia Child